So i realize i have not written on this journal in over a year, thats quite sad, so i guess i should update now with as much as i can...

Well my mom is going to Chicago cause IKE is hitting there, idk how...it just hit Texas, well anyway my grandma's basement is flooded horribly so my mom is flying out their today, this evening i believe.

School started i'm on my 2nd week. I hate my job i am given the bitch work, i don't get 15 min breaks cause they are a 'riviledge' i have to beg for a lunch break and i only get one when its convenient for them, we have 2 registers but they keep one open and always make me ring, and if i'm not they send me in the cooler, the 30 degree hell for 40 min, or less if i'm lucky, or send me to go down the scary elevator, or into the back to food hunt. I asked for a day off i worked every day last week, every time i wasn't in class, i was straight in work, i dindt get to start my homework til friday.

I asked for a day off, more specifically tuesday cause 4 people are on hand to work that day, as opposed to Friday where its just me and my supervisor, she stayed in teh back the whole time or helped the book store, as opposed to herside, yeah i work at the college
anyway so she told me no. Mind you everyone BUT me and her get days off, her not obviously she's the only supervisor she can't get off, but me? i get no days off? what the fuck is that?

I realize its stupid given up after merely a month of working, but it goes as this.
I got into the Honors program at the college, do NOT ask me how, and i want to go back to Utah, if i stay in this program, i am guaranteed scholarships and recognition, i would rather work hard to stay in this program, than work hard to earn money i'll waste. I want a tattoo and im sure it would go into that.

Mike an di got the Hotel for Salem, yeah we're going their for Halloween, with Tiff and Anthony, we specifically asked for separate rooms..just cause Anthony and Tiff would not get a pleasant surprise if they roomed with us..hehe
yes Mike and i are still together, after years of fighting and bickering and mis understanding, it will soon be 2 years and 11 months of dating, he just started college as well, his very first semester, he loves it.

So yes i will be here a year than hopefully getting out and returning to Utah for the following 2 or 3 years.

I have not been cutting for a year, but i have been doing self mutilation, which apparantly counts to everyone...oh well
I still hate how i look and feel i am not skinny enough or pretty enough, for anyone...
yes i eat, but i don't want to most of the time..but i know i'll screw myself over if i don't

Teresa, Britt and i aren't friends, which is for the better, things happened with them i can't forgive...